23th October 2006,
3.46pm Monday. Most of my frens' who worked in the factory off today- coz today is replacement holiday for Sat-Deepavalli. I'm working. Today I wear my new blouse to work, any my new hair style :PP Yeah, I've cut my hair and bought a new blouse. Not high load- not much patients, but 3 of my staff was off today (1 on-leave, 2 on Emergency Leave). It's saddening seeing people take Emergency Leave unnecessarily, I will bring this issue in the next Department Meeting. Tomorrow will be Holidays again, can't wait. Not much plan for the holidays. Sister went back last night. Wen is now staying with me, in the small room. She said my hse more quiet compared to Kedah's hse, and much more cooling, so it's good environmet for her to study. She's gonna sit for SPM exam next month...
Is it a Spiritual Dryness or something else? I'm kinda moody today. Don't really wanna talk much. Jerry came just now, updating me on the Prudential new Upgrading Scheme...we disscussed and then I shared about church and my lost of passion..or so called "spiritual dryness". Yeah, it's for me to identify tht. A choice! Or is it just a season, a cycle for me to go through? Sometimes, I can just feel so tired of life, lost all the passion for life and people.....Yeah, Jerry was right, I need to go back to the Word again- and to think of what God has given to me, what God has blessed me with, rather than thinking about my lack. The devil comes to steal, kill and destroyed, but He comes to give life, life to abundance...I need to renew my thoughts, with things that is pleasant, things that's praise worthy, or is it that I've been thinking too much negative things?
Father, forgive me for the lack of trust. You are ever powerful, and able to do the impossibles...help me to look above and not downwards, help me not to confine myself on the my own weaknesses but to grow with Your strength. In all and all, I'm wonderfully and perfectly made.....in Your image, Amen!
